Is it weird
This is always where i am
In the middle of what is and Is not
It is made up and it is real
I cannot understand what it is that I feel
It seems so unfathomable
But it seems so true
I just can’t get to the truth of you
I see YOU liking more than what I’ve been
I see YOU liking more than what I’ve given
I feel so lost while you hold me close
I see your eyes go elsewhere most
Likely for me to see your gaze in my view
Likely for me to misconstrue
It hurts my heart that I cannot trust
It kills my spirit that pain is my host
I can’t get out
I can’t see beyond
It’s not, is it really me with you I belong?
I’m fucked in the head
Do you just want me for bed
I don’t know if you really care
It’s been over a year and I still feel spare
Sparse I am for your future projection
I’m constantly questioning your affection